Today marks 5 years that my husband and I stood in front of friends and family on a calm fall evening. The room was lit with candlelight, and filled with an evident love.
Not even a year prior, I remember coming to you Lord…
My heart was heavy, and my soul felt lost… I had no where else to turn. It was Christmas eve, and very much like the night of our wedding, I was again in a church filled with candlelight. All of my church family surrounded me praising the birth of Jesus Christ with the traditional Silent Night song. I had a hard time focusing on the purpose of the evening because I had been so full of emotion. I came to you that night with a prayer.
I prayed to you Lord about how it had been many years since I had a significant other, and had no signs of there being a change in that for some time. I was surrounding myself with darkness because I felt that I wanted so badly for you to introduce me to my husband, and I couldn’t see that happening any time soon. Then, among the Christmas Eve service, I realized something so powerful. I was praying for him, but I wasn’t trusting that you would bring him. I then, in that moment understood. It wasn’t about me. I needed to understand that if it was YOUR will, I would find him. I cried silent tears while holding that small white candle… and I prayed something I never had before. I prayed to you Lord, that if it was YOUR will for me to not marry… or your will for me to wait.. I would. And that I was accepting of your will whatever it may be.
You heard me. You always do.
It was 6 days later, and I walked into a coffee shop with my red coat and curled hair, to find him. We sat for hours together that night Lord, because we both knew in our heart that you had finally brought us together. It was your will for us to submit to YOU before we could fully understand this.
That is why not even a year later, we came before you proclaiming this amazing love that we both shared. Most memories of this evening have drifted, but I remember the details. I remember the way it felt to hug my loving father before he walked me down the aisle. I remember what it felt like to walk through the doors and see my husbands face for the first time… flooded with joy and admiration. I remember what it felt like when we giggled to each other throughout the ceremony, and I remember the overflowing feeling of the Holy Spirit guiding us to become one soul.
The past five years have truly had so many ups and downs. You blessed us with two beautiful little ones, an amazing home, a life of security and full of love. Lord, you have strengthened our marriage so fully that we know that no matter what, we were brought together in your name, We have faith that we can conquer any challenge that comes our way because… We have each other, and we have YOU.
I am so grateful that you provided me with such an amazing husband. A man who holds you in his heart, and allows your presence to guide our way through life. I feel so blessed that you gave me a man who loves me for me, who challenges me, who holds me up, and who truly supports me when I feel like all is lost. He is such an incredible father, and even on our worst days… I know beyond a doubt that he will always continue to love, provide, and encourage me.
We have always felt like we knew each other, through and through, from that first day in the coffee shop. That is because YOU made us Lord, to fit like puzzle pieces from the clay. You knew all along Lord, how we were made for each other…. to balance each other, to create a laugh on a bad day, and to strengthen each other with every passing moment.
I pray Lord, that we always have this ever-growing faith. A faith in each other, and a faith in YOU. Because without that we would have never found one another.
Gracious God… you tell us in your word that we are to trust you with all our hearts, and minds, and souls.. and for that we will be given all we need. I pray that any time that our faith falters, we remember that snowy New Years day. The day you showed us your power, the day we found each other, the day our lives began.
In your loving presence we stand hand in hand.
“Such Great Heights”- iron and Wine
I am thinking it’s a sign
That the freckles in our eyes
Are mirror images and when we kiss
They’re perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate
That God himself did make us
Into corresponding shapes
Like puzzle pieces from the clay
And true it may seem like a stretch
But it’s thoughts like this that catch
My troubled head when you’re away
When I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road
For several weeks of shows
And when you scan the radio
I hope this song will guide you home